At the beginning of this week I found out that someone that had meant a lot to me had taken her own life.
She was a friend and former college tutor of mine, she was (and still do) someone that I looked up to without her support and belief in me I wouldn't have made it to university.
She had an incredible laugh and sense of humour that would have you in stitches.
loosing her hit me hard, when I found out I was beyond shocked since then I have felt confusion, guilt, sadness and many other things, I have sat for ages thinking and crying this past week it has been very hard.
I have experienced loosing a loved one before but loosing someone to suicide feels so much different, so many questions that will never have answers.
In two weeks time your family and friends will all meet for your funeral, we will share memories, laughs, tears and we will say goodbye to you knowing that someday we will meet you again.
Thank you for being my friend.